Stab My Back

Bones have become like ash,
My soul cries out.
The yearning to be needed
Though it is clear,
I never will.
The wretched path
That has been laid for me
Has never been tread upon,
I know now I am meant
To walk alone,
With no one there.
I see my hand,
Empty,
I feel my heart breaking,
Because I know I’m already gone,
No one cares,
I’m no one’s loss.
Too many pointless attempts,
It is not even worth it anymore.
I walk through
The Valley of the Shadow of Death,
And I will be consumed.
Good.
Maybe then I can rest in peace,
With no more fear,
With no more pain,
With no more betrayal,
For my God is clearly the only one,
Who never leaves me.
Leave me alone,
I’ve finally accepted my fate,
Don’t mess this up
Making me taste your unfathomable
Sting yet again.
Why do you desire to keep hurting me?
All I wanted was to be needed,
All I wanted was to make you happy,
But you chose to kill me instead,
And told me there was no way.
Fine.
All I wanted was the best for you.