Over and Over

Heartaches left me numb
A bleeding shell
This never ending cycle,
Why can’t I learn
You are such a joke.
You only ever intended
To hurt me
In any and every way.
Gripping my chest
I try and fail
To hold my heart in place.
What a wicked mess.
I trusted you
You said I meant a lot
You said to never forget.
I haven’t.
You have.
I handed you the gun
Totally trusting you
And you turned and fired
Right at my heart.
Now I sit here
In total disbelief.
How can I trust
Anyone ever again?
You ruined me
Beyond compare.
I’m afraid
I can’t heal this time.
Is it really the end this time?
I fall every time
For the same thing.
I thought you were different,
But as I lie,
I see the truth.
Just a mere shadow
Creeping along the wall
This void
Is a never ending nightmare.
That glimmering light
Was just a joke
Just a wishful thought
That is no more.