Emotionless

I cannot cry,
For the tears
Will never stop.
I cannot be happy
For I know
All you see
Is my weakness.
I cannot laugh
Because you say
There is no reason
To be so happy
Not everything is funny.
If I smile
You see the scars.
If I speak
You hear the pain.
If I look at you,
You see the struggle.
There is no place to turn
No place to hide.
Where can I go
To finally let go,
And be myself?
At a loss for words,
I bury myself here.
Leave me alone,
For you are ashamed
After looking at me.
I cannot make you proud,
I cannot make you happy.
I cannot even
Make you feel anger.
I am useless,
I need the freedom to feel.