Heaven

Is there something
On the other side
Of this ecstasy.
Trapped in a past
I’m not allowed to forget.
Time’s hands never
Stop moving,
Yet somehow,
The future never forgets
My past.
Time and time again
You remind me
Of every mistake,
Every wrong,
I want out
I want escape,
I want to forget.
I thought this salvation
Would remove this.
I can’t forget you
You won’t let me.
I need an escape,
But every door is closed.
I can’t see,
And I can’t feel.
Where is my light?
I lost it
When you reminded me.
Trapped in every memory,
Why can’t I get rid of you?
All you ever brought
Was pain and sorrow.
I longed for an end,
I thought I had it.
Tell me,
When will you have enough?
When will I be allowed
To finally move on,
And never remember
My hell.