Sometimes

Sometimes
I just don't know
What to say.
The words come out all wrong,
My thoughts spill out over each other,
And the confusion is clear.
The only song
My heart wants to sing
Is of the love
I have for you.
Fear of the unknown
Mistrust of my feelings,
Doubt of yours
All hold me back.
My heart aches,
My stomach is turning.
Where is this going?
Will the future ever be clear?
I'd fight the tides for you,
But are up for the fight as well?

Burning candles

In this hopeless abandon
Something inside me is
Screaming for more.
It was never supposed
To be this way,
But I don't know any different.
The changes inside take root
As the darkness creeps throughout.
The volume of message
Was all too clear,
The messenger
Came far too near.
Where is this going,
Why are you leading?
As the pen
Crosses this paper,
I'm reminded
Of the cold fingers
Around my throat
That prevent
The secrets from escaping.
As a candle sheds
Light in a black room
So shall I,
Figure this out
And find the end.
Darkness can only last so long
Enjoy your time left.

Dreams

My heart swells
At the mere thought
Of holding your hand,
Or your head on my shoulder,
As you fall asleep.
The peace you exude
Is enough to calm
Even my restless nerves.
Someone like you
Can get any guy you want,
But somehow I have
Your undivided attention.
What could I possibly
Ever have done to earn your attention?
I'm afraid to close
My eyes at night,
Out of fear
When I reopen them,
You will be only
An incredible dream.
The kind of dream
You never want to have
Because you're afraid
Nothing like that
Could ever happen in real life.
You surprise me every day,
There you are,
With the smile of an angel,
And the embrace of someone who loves me,
I know you're real,
And I can't stop loving you.