Crush

Don’t toy with my mind
This is the point we’ve reached.
Is this really what is going on?
The confession my heart has whispered
More times than I can count,
You mean more to me
Then I even know how to tell you.
A fear has gripped me for so long,
The fear of not knowing.
Will you accept me?
Will this ruin the friendship we have?
Acid burns in my chest
When I see another guy
Talking to you like that,
And the smile that lights up your face.
More and more I realize
My life isn’t like the movies.
The guy doesn’t always get the girl
Prince Charming doesn’t always come
Riding on the white horse.
I hope and pray
That you can see and hear me,
Will my confession
Fall on deaf ears?
Does it even matter
What you mean to me?
I’m not famous,
I’m nothing special,
I’m just the one
Who wants to hold you
In his arms,
And be the one there for you always.
Does it even matter?
It may be just a crush,
But I don’t care.
All I want is you,
Do you feel the same?

A Thousand Goodbyes

Why is it when I’m around you
I feel like a tiger in a zoo
A metallic cage as my prison
Set out for all to point and stare.

I feel like the main attraction
In your sick masquerade you call life.
The party scene all too attractive
For you to use some brain cells and walk away.

As the words left my mouth, I regretted them right away
How could you make me say I love you,
You angel of wrath.
You opened my eyes to a pain only the heart can feel,
I need to wake up, to forget everything
Move on, lessons learned, get me out of here.

I wish I could paint for you
An accurate picture of the torture you’ve put me through.
I wish I could count the times all the times I said goodbye,
All the times I swore I would never come back.

My heart swore you could change
My mind knows you’re too far gone
The sickness in the pit of my stomach should have been enough
Of a red flag for me to know what I was doing wrong.

As the words left my mouth, I regretted them right away
How could you make me say I love you,
You angel of wrath.
You opened my eyes to a pain only the heart can feel
I need to wake up, to forget everything.
Move on, lessons learned, get me out of here.

Show me something new, prove me wrong
Show me I don’t have you all figured out
There has never been a time like now,
Where I’ve wanted to be wrong, as bad as I do now.
Everything around me is screaming to walk away and give up
Let me go, walk away, this games over
Thing’s changed, and it never will

As the words left my mouth, I regretted them right away
How could you make me say I love you,
You angel of wrath.
You opened my eyes to a pain only the heart can feel
I need to wake up, to forget everything
Move on, lessons learned, get me out of here.