Confessions

I see you nearly everyday
We talk all the time.
Before we’re even close
To being done hanging out,
We’re already planning
The next time.
There is so much similarity
Between us,
And yet there is also
Much difference.
You are probably
One of the most real things
In my life.
I hate it when I’m not near you,
I miss you incredibly
When you’re away.
I honestly feel
Like I’ve known you forever.
You may think I’m crazy,
Heck, you’ve told me so
Countless times,
But I need you.
I love you,
More than you could understand.
You blow me off,
And I’m still here.
You cling to me
During hard times,
And I ache
As you explain
I’ve never seen you cry,
You’re strong,
But you can’t hide.
I know you far too well.
All this time,
I thought you knew
What has gone on
In my head.
Clearly I’m wrong,
And you haven’t caught on.
Soon enough,
I’m coming clean,
And I’ll make sure
You know how I feel.
I love you,
And I need you,
I understand
You may not feel
The same way.
But maybe,
Just maybe…
I’m wrong.
I hope
That you just keep
Your cards close,
And play them
At just the right time.
You know
How to make me jealous,
You know
How to make me respond.
As cliché as it sounds,
No one has ever made me feel
The way that you do.
I pray,
That we will be together…
One day.
Even if it is years down the road.

Stricken

Falling slowly away
I reach for your hand,
But it is just beyond my grasp.
Why can’t I reach you,
Why do you run?
There cannot be any other,
Can you not see?
Six years
We’ve been playing this game.
I need an end,
I need a resolution.
Tell me
Where this path leads
Does it intertwine?
Does it disconnect?
Are we so separate
You cannot even see the choice?
The bell tolls,
And your eyes are opened.
I fear the moment
Is nearly too late.
Is the madness over,
Can you honestly tell,
Show me the way
Make it clear,
Tell me now.
Accept the call
Trust me once more.
The bond that cannot break
Proves once more.
Try as you have,
It has not been shaken.
One more attempt,
You see it has withstood trial.
I beg you please,
Just listen.
Logic points only one direction,
What is your final decision?
Betray logic,
Or accept love.
The choice,
I fear,
Remains only in your hands.

Far Better to Learn

Darkness in silence
Bitterness locked away
A resilient rage
Storming against my heart.
Heartstrings come undone
As I listen to the wind
Her silent whisper
A curse in my mind.
I can’t take this anymore
The memories spilling over
Consuming every word
Every thought,
Every movement.
A maelstrom of chaos,
You thought
You owned me
From the beginning.
Things must change
Where do they begin.
As I recount the destruction
I can taste the poison
In your every word.
The sickness slowly taking over,
My eyes start to fail me.
As darkness begins
To shroud the light.
I can no longer see
But I can feel it
Slowly taking over
If I give into it,
I’m already dead
One last struggle
The final breath
You cannot win,
No, not even in death.
The bittersweet quiet
Finally grants relief.
Revenge is dead,
While mercy lives on.