All These Things (Revolve Around You)

There are so many thoughts
Racing through my mind
Memories collide
Temporarily causing me to forget reality.
I need you here,
I can’t hear your voice anymore,
I need to see your face,
Your hand wrapped in mine,
Under the stars
On those summer nights,
Take me back to those times.
I can’t stop thinking,
I can’t sleep
Because I can’t shut my mind off,
Every though begins with you
And a question,
Did I do the right thing?
Am I making the right choice?
So many words are lost
And you haven’t heard a single one.
Do you care?
Do you want to know?
Take me back to yesterday
Twisting the hands of time
To give me my chance back.
I never got my shot,
But this time,
I’m not missing my chance.
This story’s not over
Until you’re here with me.

I Should Tell You

So tell me this:
Why can’t I get you out of my head?
Baby, you mean more to me
Than you should.
A longing so deep in my soul
It got lost on its way out.
Oh how she longs to divulge
Every thought whispered,
Every word missed,
Every look misunderstood.
So many things from the past,
Things left unsaid
That should have been screamed out loud..
As the clock tick tocks
To the final moment,
A mystery finale
Neither could guess.
Countless secrets
Begin telling the alternate ending,
The kind the director explains.
Are things better left unsaid?
What are my choices?
I sit staring
At the darkening sky,
Everything on my mind.
What’s more,
You’ve figured out how to run
The never-ending marathon in my head.
One touch,
Like a burn across my arm
That remains forever etched.
Scars remain,
But you’re still here,
Unforgotten.

Masterpiece

Brushes with no paint,
She creates beautiful murals
Through the halls of my mind.
Something unforeseen,
Vibrancy blinds.
A heart that caught me off guard.
I’m lost in the pursuit,
Afraid I can’t keep up.
Is this for real,
Have I lost touch
With my reality?
Another touch
And time races
Unyieldingly forward.
I need a moment
One frozen in time
Never leave me,
Remain here forever.
As the ground sweeps me up,
I need the solid foothold.
My strength has left me,
Heartstrings are fraying,
Urgency is gone,
I surrender.
My thoughts
Now bleed your vibrancy,
Purpose and direction,
Alone no more,
Meaning,
Take the mess,
Turn it into your masterpiece.

One in a Million

The beginning of something new
Is always
The scariest place to start.
So many secrets,
So many thoughts raging
Try to keep up
As everything spills over.
I long to look
Into your eyes
To fully understand you.
What is the meaning of this,
As my hearts drums
Against my ribcage,
And my pulse races rapidly.
All you are doing
Is smiling at me
A smile that calms oceans,
You bring a joy,
You don’t understand.
My heart is breaking
Into millions of pieces
I can’t catch them all
As they fall.
It aches at the thought
Of you leaving,
Walking away.
You are not mine,
Will you ever be?
Are you just a dream?
Or will you stay
A part of my reality.

Someday We'll Know

There’s an ache in my heart
That I cannot describe.
This ache comes
When I see you
And realize
I can never be with you.
When you hurt,
And seem to be
Falling apart at the seams,
I am the one there,
With my arms around you
Trying to hold you together.
He is always there,
But He uses me to help you.
I love you
With all my heart,
But I know
You do not share that feeling.
The thoughts
Run like a waterfall,
Consuming my every minute.
One day I’ll share,
One day you’ll know.
But for now,
I will not lead you
Into confusion,
Not knowing what to do.
I will not wait
Until it is too late,
For that is more than I can bear.

Sometimes

Sometimes
I just don't know
What to say.
The words come out all wrong,
My thoughts spill out over each other,
And the confusion is clear.
The only song
My heart wants to sing
Is of the love
I have for you.
Fear of the unknown
Mistrust of my feelings,
Doubt of yours
All hold me back.
My heart aches,
My stomach is turning.
Where is this going?
Will the future ever be clear?
I'd fight the tides for you,
But are up for the fight as well?

Burning candles

In this hopeless abandon
Something inside me is
Screaming for more.
It was never supposed
To be this way,
But I don't know any different.
The changes inside take root
As the darkness creeps throughout.
The volume of message
Was all too clear,
The messenger
Came far too near.
Where is this going,
Why are you leading?
As the pen
Crosses this paper,
I'm reminded
Of the cold fingers
Around my throat
That prevent
The secrets from escaping.
As a candle sheds
Light in a black room
So shall I,
Figure this out
And find the end.
Darkness can only last so long
Enjoy your time left.