A New Beginning

I wish there was some way
To give you back
Everything you’ve given me.
Something has changed inside,
I feel like I’ve been given a second chance.
I bore my heart,
And you continued to hold it.
You didn’t throw it away,
Like every other one.
How can I make you proud of me?
You can do no wrong,
Your words are like fire,
Stirring this healthy pain
In my heart
I’ve never experienced.
Can’t you see?
I’m new.
Like a breath of fresh air,
Like a cold shower
After mowing the lawn.
The smell after a storm,
I can feel you,
Moving me forward.
The weight’s been lifted,
The games are over,
Tomorrow is a new day,
The freshest start.

Safe

Far from perfect
Everything is falling apart
As the memories come racing back
The mistakes start stacking.
How did I get so far off track?
This is the last step
The last chance.
I cannot ruin this one,
My last promise.
Tell me I stand a chance
Console my heart,
I can’t stand to lose this one.
Come so far,
I feel my fingers
Slowly losing their grip
On every slippery hold
That was once so solid.
There was no lie in her eyes,
I cannot shake
The fear that is choking
All sense of hope
That this is following the path
That I wish so desperately to have.
Options have been exhausted,
As I sit here,
I can only pray
That I am still everything
You say I am,
Far from a failure,
Yet never reaching perfection.
Take me by the hand,
Carry me to the destination,
My body is weary,
My legs cannot hold me any longer.
My strength is gone,
All that’s left is you…
Thank you,
For being everything you always said you were.

Dream On

Page after page of pure perfection
Dreams coming true
At the turn of every page.
The guy always gets
The girl of his dreams,
And the girl always gets
Mr. Perfect.
Pure imagination,
Manipulation at its best.
My story’s been told
A hundred times,
Yet nothing can touch
This novel my heart has written
A million times over.
Unease fills my chest
As you start to read.
Our dreams are so different,
Yet they somehow coincide.
You often ask,
Why can’t my life,
Be more like those books,
When the answer is so clear
They are but fantasy,
Someone else's fiction.
Reality is filled with
Wrong choices,
Heartache,
Despair,
All the while knowing
All the love and joy,
That fantasy only focus on.
All my life’s lessons,
Come from living,
From experience,
From dreaming,
And striving
To make my hopes and dreams
Become a reality,
Something a child's imagination
Could not think up.
Dreams becoming reality,
Far more than a story can create.

Galaxies Collide

The sun descends
After the utmost
Of perfection. 
Beauty dripping down
The fabrics of the sky. 
Failures erased
As mistakes are dried. 
The stars sing
Their quiet melody
As you and I dance
In the twilight. 
The moon watches quietly
As a perfect night is made. 
There she stands
In all her wonder,
Imaginations are silenced
For they cannot compare. 
This world is our dancefloor,
As we move
With boundless grace. 
Take my hand,
The day will never end,
As you are in my arms. 

A Place to Rest

Air came crashing down
As the ocean whispered
The secrets we
Were never meant to know. 
Never before has so much
Been hidden in the noise,
And so much declared
In the utter silence. 
Pressure building
Seeking a release. 
What have we ever known
About peaceful conflict. 
Nobody's listening
To the voices
As the greatest story ever told
Is being written. 
Light floods the darkness,
Darkness retaliates,
What chance does a lie stand
Against truth?
Clamped shut,
My mouth contiues to scream. 
What more is there,
So much more,
Time to breathe,
Relax,
Live. 

Pain

I wish there was a way
For you to understand
The hell you've put me through.
The blood is still fresh
From every wound
You have ever caused me.
The ending to the story was so close
I could actually taste it.
You stole the ending
Right at the climax of pain.
An indescribable rage
Fills my soul
When I see
All the damage you've wrought.
You've burned your face
Into more lives than I thought possible. 
I can't take this war anymore,
Just go away. 
Forget closure,
Forget healing.
Just go away,
Time won't heal these scars,
But at least you can't
Give me any fresh ones.
I've had enough.
Before the beast gets released
Take a hint.
The trauma of a new beginning
Is something
I can't wait to sink
My teeth into. 
Please,
Spare me just this once,
Allow me just this one escape. 
Leave me alone,
And just disappear. 

Welcome to the Masquerade

You've got me feeling
Something a little more than worthless,
But far less than human.
Something changed.
When did you trade the roadmap
For a joke?
I promised you had me,
Somehow I'm far from good enough.
I don't know you anymore
And I wonder if I ever did.
Trust me when I say
You're not worth trusting.
The stars aligned
In a pattern they were never meant to.
I find myself laughing
There's nothing funny,
Yet it's laughable.
Did you really think
I was that blind?
I can still see clearly
Even when you think I'm clueless.
Maybe nievity is a blessing
But I don't have that gift.
Sorry.