One in a Million

The beginning of something new
Is always
The scariest place to start.
So many secrets,
So many thoughts raging
Try to keep up
As everything spills over.
I long to look
Into your eyes
To fully understand you.
What is the meaning of this,
As my hearts drums
Against my ribcage,
And my pulse races rapidly.
All you are doing
Is smiling at me
A smile that calms oceans,
You bring a joy,
You don’t understand.
My heart is breaking
Into millions of pieces
I can’t catch them all
As they fall.
It aches at the thought
Of you leaving,
Walking away.
You are not mine,
Will you ever be?
Are you just a dream?
Or will you stay
A part of my reality.

Someday We'll Know

There’s an ache in my heart
That I cannot describe.
This ache comes
When I see you
And realize
I can never be with you.
When you hurt,
And seem to be
Falling apart at the seams,
I am the one there,
With my arms around you
Trying to hold you together.
He is always there,
But He uses me to help you.
I love you
With all my heart,
But I know
You do not share that feeling.
The thoughts
Run like a waterfall,
Consuming my every minute.
One day I’ll share,
One day you’ll know.
But for now,
I will not lead you
Into confusion,
Not knowing what to do.
I will not wait
Until it is too late,
For that is more than I can bear.