The Darkest Night

Shattered to pieces
Forgotten the light
I’m sorry
I cannot be everything
You want me to be
Forgive me
For being imperfect
Flawed
Defective
I’m not the sparkling jewel you want.
Ineloquent
Self-conscious
My bleeding fist
Through the mirror
Is the true reflection
Of how I feel.
This bitter cold darkness
Has crept in,
Tainting the light.
This can’t be real,
You wouldn’t know
The real me,
Even if I showed you.
You wouldn’t want to anyway.
One more smile,
One more wave,
One more lonely glance,
I can get through this day.
I lost myself
And I don’t know
Where to find me.
The mask has been on
For far too long
I don’t know
Who I am anymore.
Vicious thoughts take over,
Ravaging my brain.
Careening out of control,
I stumble around.
When will my voice
Finally go above
This wretched ceiling

Silent Night

I cut my heart out
Throw it off to the side,
Let it bleed and die on its own.
It doesn’t need your help,
You’ve done enough already.
What a sudden,
Sick turn of events.
You opened my eyes
In a way you will never understand.
In a sleepless slumber,
My eyes still haven’t adjusted.
I held out my hand,
Yet I saw the void
In your eyes
As you slapped my hand away.
It never meant anything,
Just as you said.
One final kiss goodnight,
And I’m finally awake.